Family, are the people who always wish for my success and standby 24 hours to support me.
They are the last person, i would talk to whenever i am sad, in trouble or facing obstacle.
They are the first person i would share my happiness to.
I hardly go to them, because there are not too much of happiness i am able to share with them.
I hardly turn to them, because almost everything i can settle my own.
Recently very demotivated. I went home, and wish to spend time with them. Mum always the same, treat me like princess. Order breakfast for me, ask me to sit down and wait.. ask me go shopping and buy everything i want for me, and in a very happy mood.. I don't know why she feels happy to buy lots of things for me. She always said she want to sponsor me hair cut, sponsor me spec, dress and shoes.. Always want me to dress beautiful. * so manja ya *
Actually i feel ashamed. I am suppose to be the one who sponsor them right? Yeah.. Their demand a bit high. Need time.
Dad, always ask what business to do? Any business for him to invest? Any opportunity that can work together 1 family.. Dad dream is, whole family running 1 business altogether under my lead.
This is always what i wanted too. But, i am sorry. I am not hardworking enough towards it.
I am facing some problem with career recently, and need time to heal. Too much to lose this time.
I learnt, i felt, i fall, and i am more ready to face the challenge in future this time.
During my downtime, can see family putting effort in comforting me. Asking me to stand up again, and no more trust other people again. I really learnt to be a little selfish this time, as the selfish traits is not in me. I always put people first. I always spend money on people. Always tying to make people happy and myself in the later side.
Start from today, i will put family first, their happiness first and mine 2nd. I realized that i put lot of effort in some friends, and end up being play like a fool, not being appreciated and something that i don't expect to happen, happened. This doesn't means all my friends are bad. My vision in taking friends are not that bad. "chuckle" I still have few great friends out there, supporting friends, and that don't demand much and friend with me as who i am.
Anyway, the world is really full of drama. We need to take part in the drama, and choose the character that we want to be following the situation.
Only one place in my world that no drama needed. Just be my own character that i want to be. And it is my HOME. Thanks my parents, my younger brother and sister,for always think the best for me. Not forgetting my elder bro n sis too. They are always there to support my parents too in Johor, as i am away.
